MyPoetry

Drowning

I’m drowning
I’m literally sinking
My own thoughts are killing me
I feel like I’m being strangled
Maybe I’m over thinking
I probably I’m
But I’m very sure
I’m drowning I can't fall asleep at all I'm tired of these sleepless nights The days are even longer

I can’t help it
I can’t help myself
Somebody,
You hear me?
I need help
I’m drowning

You matter

You are beautiful
You are loved
You matter
You are precious
You are prayed for
You deserve the best
You are the best version of you
You define love
You are great at everything you do
You deserve to be happy
Your can be anything you want to be
You are a gem, a jewel, a diamond
You are a role model
You are the reason someone wants to wake up
You are perfection
You are beautifully flawed
You are exactly what you wish to be
You are beautiful
You are loved
You matter

Adulting

I always wanted to grow up
To be referred to as a grown up
To be in a position to make my own decision
And that too without asking for permission
To be able to pick my own friends
And stay out with them on weekends
And now I realize that I was so wrong
And to think that it took me so long
There are things I wasn’t told
Maybe they expected me to learn when I got old
I didn’t know how hard it was to pay a bill
Or how expensive it was to afford a meal
I thought it’d feel like being in a new kingdom
Because that comes with some freedom
So yes, now I’m at liberty
But I’m jailed by fear of poverty
The adults I used to see were always calm
I now realize that it was all but a scam
Being an adult is anything but fun
If you need anything you have to earn
I’m emotionally drained, I’m tired of adulthood
Could anyone please take me back to childhood?

Life is a seesaw

I’ve been so high I didn’t think I’d come down,

I’ve been so low I didn’t think I’d rise,

I’ve had so much I gave some out,

I’ve lacked the most basic things and had to borrowed,

I’ve ignored people who needed my help,

I’ve been ignored when I was in dire need,

I’ve made promises I couldn’t fulfill,

I’ve been promised things that are yet to come true,

I’ve had wonderful experiences and laughed loud,

I’ve cried myself to sleep so many times also,

I’ve offered my shoulder for a soul that needed to lean on,

I’ve leaned and cried on people’s shoulders equally,

I heard that life is a dance,

Sometimes you lead, sometimes you follow,

And being on either side is just fine,

Because life; is apparently a dance,

But I say life is a seesaw,

Sometimes you’re so high you almost fly,

And yet sometimes you’re so low you almost hit the ground,

And that is fair.. Because life ; is only but a seesaw.

FRIENDS VS ENEMIES

You need to find and cherish a friend

One day he/she will give you a hand

Be loyal and respectful to those you love

Treat them like you’d treat a dove

With gentleness and care

They’ll reciprocate as it is fair

Be very wary of your enemies

Avoid them like plagues

That’s what we were made to believe

They said it’d keep us alive

But now enemies don’t hunt us anymore

Friends and lovers harm us more

Snakes no longer hiss

They now dress up and offer us a kiss

Should I still be scared of my enemy?

Or my very own close army??

At your own pace

Who sets the rules on how things should work?
Who tells the clock when it should tick?
So what if I moved on after a few days?
Does it matter that after years I think of him anyways?
Why do we let them control our doings?
We’re entitled to our own feelings
Cry about it if it soothes your soul
Drink it out if it makes you smile
Do it at your own perfect time
Following masses might not earn you a dime
Learn to do things at your own pace
It is life, not by any means a race